My tumblr is my feelings, sexual frustration, things I like, basically the inside of my mind on a blog. There's an x button at the top of your browser, if you don't like it. I'm an outcast. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I fake smiles & laughter on a daily basis. I've cried into my pillow case more times than I can count. Most days I don't even want to get out of bed. I've been through hell & back. I've seen how harsh the world can be. I've seen how harsh I can be. I've made mistakes. I've self harmed. I've lost people in my life. The thought of suicide crosses my mind every single day. But I'm still here, breathing & standing strong. Everything happens for a reason. I might not know exactly where I'm going now but one day I will. & I'd like to believe that everything will be worth it in the end. Music can express my feelings better than I can. If I hear a song & I can relate to it, then it doesn't matter what kind it is or who it is... if I can relate to it, its beautiful. I live for the little things in life. Warning I'm a little strange. I'm 17. I'm Melanie. Welcome to my tumblr... :)